I feel as if im going to be crying every night non stop till i pass out, and at times I feel as if the world does’nt need me and my flaws anymore. Then I think … how am I even influencing anyone, I feel as if im letting down the people I help. Because I can’t do it . . because it feels as if this world doesn’t need me wasting it’s time…

So I have this big crush on this guy that I had my 1st date with in my 10th grade year and things changed and things just faded. We got back in contact and he’s more amazing than ever, thing is -___- I m at the point of my life again where I’m just standing here saying, “I want to be with you but I know I am friend zoned” . Why do you have to be so damn cute and so amazing!

ALONE FOREVER!!

MERP… <3

As if I were a child yesterday, and today standing on the ledge of who I’m becoming since that “yesterday”. We all make mistakes and we all have our times where we just want to jump and just say “Fuck this”, For the human’s that we are that judge, don’t really know whats inside the oyster on how it really looks like before you open it. People are afraid to taste it and some are not, and you’ll never expect what kind of pearl you get . You can ethier get pink,blue,black,white , or maybe even nothing; There is always a surprise. No one’s perfect and no one can be identically the same, we are own person; but everyone is the same no matter what they are and who they are.

I made my own mistakes before and I know I’m not that mature but I do my best that I can in my life, but there are times where I flip out my middle finger and say “fuck this”, and as a person who want’s to inspire girls. . I’m still working on myself. To be honest , I thinkI am following my mothers foot steps when I shouldn’t be. I smoke and I really don’t give a fuck what people say if their going to get mad at me because I do it or because I always said I’m going to be a straight edge. I know how to control myself and I know when I should do it even if its still wrong. My ex knows and some friends know. Some are disappointed and some are like whatever. I make mistakes and I keep making them but I’ll learn but at the end of the day I know who I am and what and how far I m going to go in life but all in this point. . Do what you want to do unless it’s like something on harming yourself then talk to someone or message me or something because you’re never alone in this world even if the world has these damn models who are so skinny that they look like their going to disappear in my opinion and thats what some people want to see, Just love yourself if your curvy or skinny and not give a fuck of what people think because at the end of the day you’re going to be thinking “I love the person I am no matter what , and I know I am going to go far in this shit”